It feels great to be back to normal life again, this past 6 months of mine had been a journey, not of a distance but mentally. In search to finding out who I am and to divided between my wants and need. I was living a selfish life before, a life of self-happiness. I want to be happy regardless what others think or caused hurtfulness. I have a goal now, it might be impossible but I feel this is what I want to do for a career. Is to be a entertainer. We’ll see..
In vain, we try to hold onto things longer than we should. we don’t want—can’t let go and it hurts more to keep holding on than it was to before. we damage ourselves trying to keep things together. letting go isn’t giving up and being weak because to let go of something you worked so hard for… you need more strength than you ever thought you needed. don’t wear yourself out. let go.
I’ll be moving to another state soon, starting a new life.. Leaving the past in the past. Motivated towards the future.
Some people asked me, “It’s been so long since you last had a girl, are you being too picky?” I honestly don’t know what I’m waiting for, I don’t want to be in a relationship to cure my loneliness at time of alone. I don’t want to force myself or anyone else to be in a relationship, but I believe that my happiness is with her and she’s out there somewhere.
Valentine’s day is coming, for us single people.. It could be a depressing day, depends on how you look at it. We all crave for the love and attentions that’s empty within our heart. Instead of being sad that you don’t have a date, do something meaningful to others instead. Surprise someone with chocolates and flowers. It will make their day better and yours as well. =]
I had a dream a couple of nights ago about my elementary school best friend’s sister. I was having a date with her, but I haven’t seen her in 15 years and it popped up soo randomly!? Our minds are so weird, it’s like it has a mind of it’s own. Lol